cerberus;

i will destroy everything you love
rip them to shreds with the skin of teeth
bore of red-tinted eyes glinting in the shade
inexorable truth of obliteration looming over
mounds of her fallen prey
you are next

number one wanted nothing more than to
watch your skin burn under the dribbling sputum of her lolling tongue
two would love to pulverize
bones one thru two hundred six into dilapidated calcic grain
head three played with the
entrails of your mother and took a lustrous claw out of her meal to play with you

they call me a saint until they realize
the devil is living right under their very own nose-
i will destroy everything you love
you are next
Darling only used one head
won’t you play with the other two?

***feeling kind of spooky and dark since it’s almost Halloween y’all

whiteout;

i took your organs and ripped them out to turn them backwards and
inside-out- i found them black like shadow black like shade black like dark black like me-
leaking tendrils of shadow in pores of two,three,five,eight
more

 
weighed down by the pit of mass, shaken, stirred, but never mixed
blackblackblack burned through and left
trails of shadows in their wake

watch me;

I.

about the end of the world, it’s already here. it’s here
and you couldn’t spot it and she couldn’t spot and i couldn’t spot it and-
destruction is so clear and it’s hard to care about it burning. burning
when you are full of fluorescent lights burning liquid nitrogen through your pores. burning
cheap whiskey downdowndown. it is
ugly like hell it is ugly like heaven it is ugly like you-

II.

i could write scriptures on the finer points of being used. i would
finish ten times and i would glue the seams together with adhesive wool and
wonder why the pages wouldnotcouldnotwouldnot stay together-
(i gave you shredded sheets; you ripped me up first)

III.

the world is over and i stood and watched it melt into ash. i keep trying to read but the words are blending together in the smoke and all i get is nomorenocando and no-
the toxic wind feels delicious on my polished skin wiping
away the cells that bound us together; watch me rip the hems with
eyebrow tweezers the wool falling apart in cinders; watch me stitch the cinders together-
ribbons of you and i dangling in the precipice- watch me take those ribbons and
grind them into dust under my kneecaps

IV.

watch me breathe vaporic acid down your chest, circulating through your lungs and out-
you are alive and it is nothing but unfortunate. let me
drag your broken bruised battered body through disintegrating wreckage. i will
wrap my calloused hands around your torrid throat and watch our cells
melt into each other-
(honey, i have imprinted on you and now you can watch the world burn beneath my fingers)

V.

pulling the hair out of her head piece by piece. watch me do this
love. watch me sew her shattered teeth back together and put them back to where they were-
tell me, do you still love her smile?

ozone;

I am the torrid thunder, I am lightning

I find sparks of static heat, mists, cumulonimbus,
rain, snow, precipitation.
And with the stars the moon & the comets all over

I find the sky filled with
liquid acid
-torrential steam burning through

all the screams
that of my homeland desperate-

I ascend above

& break the ozone

& weep the cold rain.

styx & stones;

I had a glimpse of you when we
Passed each other on black tar carpet
And I was breathing in shattered champagne
Was rolling black between my fingers
Breathing in the ash of your ancestors

I had a glimpse of you when I
Was swimming in the river of styx
And you were swimming in adulation
While I smoked tears from your face

I had a glimpse of you when you
Were pulling that .45 from between the shelves
And I was between the pages grasping at my words

I saw you when I was you
Simpering at the bloody massacre under my skin

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I hate that wordpress always reformats my poems in a different shape than what I originally planned.

off-center;

I took this idea and ran with it
A splash of color against muted grey
Flashes of brown and green and
Shades that only existed on you
I’m pretty sure that it was just a figment of my imagination
The dulcet tones fading to nothing
But those shades of color were only on you
I took this idea and ran with it
And it was like tone-deaf jackhammers hacking away against the beat
A bitter syringe that tasted spicy on all the wrong notes
Melodies that no one could hear but me
I took this idea and ran with it
And tripped two feet from the starting line

robot;

I am the author of far-flung hopes
And I wear your love like a title

I raise you a glass full of metallic greed
And drink up that glamoured oil spill

I will live this summer, a crinkle on my sleeve,
LIRR flying by, sunkissed nothings on the dock
I will raise you a glass topped with bitter sweet
And down it with nothing but the echo

Hometown blues got nothing on this
Guitar stripped screams ripping down the walls
Soundboard notes crooning across the way
Rolling thunder down the hills of the reservoir

Cheers to five months and forever to go
Canvas painted white with the shadows on hold
Collateral Damage with only religion to lose
Chasing the train to where it all will —

I wore your love like a title
And the words have all run loose

trigger;

You might have pulled the trigger
                          but we both have blood on our hands
We’re fighting for something fragile
the baited whisper of heated air on ice glass smooth skin

Too late, don’t stop
It’s not trouble in paradise
                         But trouble in the corporeal life

Took me, ripped me in two hundred and six different ways
it was nothing but a big distraction from the fast life

strung the pieces from the floor of the cathedral
it was all up in arms and I couldn’t bring it up
                          only after I took you with me

You might have pulled the Trigger
                          but we both have blood on our hands
the pope is bleeding out on the floor
and you’re throwing the sins in the air

All that’s good must come down
There are only two sure things in this world
                         life and

Eh. Inspiration hits sometimes

forget me;

You took me by the chains
wrapped them around your wrists
one, two, three tight

It took you only seconds to blind me
and even less time for you to unwrap me to your passion

Fog blurred over my senses
and all I could see was you
You blinded me to everything except you, yourself, and I

And I won’t forgive you

You took me by the chains
wrapped them around your wrists
one, two, three tight

You whispered those pretty words
i love you, forever
punctuated and loving

It took only seconds for you to blurt out those words
and even less time for me to be blindsided by those callous syllables

And I won’t forgive you

silver lining;

You dipped me in a sea of poison
to see if I would come out like you.
So full of shit the lies are spewing
out of every goddamn orifice
You dipped me in a lake of acid
to wash the happiness out of my soul
Every ignorantarrogant breath passing between you lips
like a world of hollow laughs running through my bloodstream

What does faith have to do with this madness?
Can’t you see?

You dipped me in your sea of poison
to see if I would come out like you
Too bad you didn’t see your ill will
seep into my deadened skin
You dipped me in your lake of acid
to become a happiness only you could evoke
Too bad you’re left with nothing but a paper doll
wounds leaking with the blood of your silence
…